Pregnancy No 2

I was glad when I found out that I was going to be a mum in April 2013 for the 2nd time. Such a blessing from God and even though I had just returned back to work in May, I was in the least apprehensive about having to be away again less than a year of coming back from maternity leave. I was chuffed. I remember breaking the news to the hubby and he couldn't wipe the grin of his face for the next 5 mins. At the back of my mind I just had this worry as my previous pregnancy didn't go as planned... I knew I was going to have more hospital appointments this time around since I would be considered as "high risk" and be assigned to a high risk obstetrician. I had my first scan at 7 weeks as I was having severe cramps. I had another one at 13 weeks and saw my high risk Ob afterwards. We made a plan to have a cervical scan every 2 weeks and see her afterwards for a talk to discuss worries and I was given progesterone suppositories to help prevent anything from happening suddenly. She was not convinced about how effective it was but was going by reports of the successes she has seen in the past. I took them everyday. I had my scans every two weeks and the lengths were good. We weren't really sure of why I had my daughter early the last time cause it was all inconclusive but we wanted to make sure we did our best to treat and monitor cervical insufficiency just in case that was the issue. I looked forward to those scans though not convenient as it was often and took me away from work but I was going to do all I can for a full term baby this time around with the help of God and my ob.
I got to 21 weeks 2 days and had a scan scheduled. I left work early and made my way to the hospital. I got into the room I was going to have the scan. 3 minutes into the scan, the technician's face wasn't what it was a few seconds ago. She said my cervix was shortening and was now 2.4cm from 5cm two weeks ago and was "funnelling" didn't know what that meant but she said it was opening from the top. They call it "funnelling" cause it's the shape of a funnel. I was scared and the tears fell. I was heartbroken. I saw my Ob who said I wasn't going and would be taken to labour and delivery. She explained I would be given a stitch to secure the cervix and tighten it but that the success rate isn't clear and it might work and might not. But generally it is to buy time and see me further along in the pregnancy. She said it could give me one more week, or five, ten or even see me through to term. I just prayed to God in tears just in my heart to take control of this situation. I called my husband, briefed him and he was making his way into the Hospital. I was taken to l&d with my sats taken and just told to lie down. I was waiting for the specialist who was going to place the stitch to brief me on the procedure, the risks and anything else I need to know. My husband came and brought Miss T along. They waited till 11pm so we could both see the specialist never didn't show up till after my hubby left. She came in and said the procedure had a few risks of bleeding, rupturing the membranes, infections but thought it could work if we were able to place it in and wanted me to think about it and give an answer. I told her I was going for it but would run it through the hubby. We both decided the  benefit for us outweighed the risks. I signed the consent forms and the procedure was scheduled for the next morning.
i was a nervous wreck, was in tears all through the night and just kept meditating on psalm 34:4. "I sought The Lord and he heard me and delivered me from all my fears" I wasn't going to let that word go and I kept meditating on it. At 9:30am I was in theatre and was put upside down and the stitch was placed after having to push back the membranes slightly. My hubby was waiting outside and I burst into tears as I got back into my room. It was all a bit too much to comprehend. I was monitored for the next 24 hours and was sent home with instructions to be on Strict bed rest(SBR) , no lifting, no housework, no standing for more than 15 minutes, to up the dosage of the suppositories. There was nothing more the doctors could other than monitor every 2 weeks. The rest was up to God to do and I am trusting him to show himself strong in my situation knowing fully well that God who has Done it previously can do it again. I am indeed trusting him for a 38 weeker this time and I know he will do it.
So after seventeen days of having the cerclage procedure I am still on SBR, my hubby has been wonderful taking care of me in ways I never knew he could, I bought all my Xmas gifts online and it was really a low key christmas, blogging, praying and listening to music. Luckily we have a live-in-nanny taking care of Miss T . Poor Miss T having a mum who lays in bed all day not even able to pick her up but i am certain this too shall pass and there will be a full term, healthy baby.I am taking these milestone one at a time. First 28 weeks where baby's chance of survival is high, 32 weeks were baby will be able to do really and 37 weeks full term anything after that is just "rock n roll".
Didnt know that my first proper post will be on such a sober note but I know things will only get better from here. How are you all preparing for the festive season?